🤭 Welcome Gentlefolk to my long and involved Update Post 🤭

I want to go over some things I'm grateful for, working on and life changes that have been giving me cause to change my idea of how I want to produce music moving forward

To kick things off I wanna mention that I have been enjoying tattoo artistry and got one recently and would be getting far more in the future when I can. The style of some great Newgrounds art has been pushing me in that direction, so if you make good art, PM me with your pieces that are skin worthy 🤑

I am also starting a new job on Monday so my schedule for time I can work on Music will be more predictable. I recently streamed on Twitch while remixing Painvol's song, "ON A COD STUPIDITY NIGHT" 😶 which should emerge at some point this month. I essentially want to overhaul my Twitch to look far better and pleasing as I did for MadajGaming's Twitch with my Pixel Art

Also shout out to both Yasiin Clemens and Mister James for working with me on the tracks, "BANGER.M4A" and "Drop Tabs in Black Cabs" which have been incredibly lovely to work on they were great sports with the musical process 🥰

To move onto external projects, I have been wanting to provide more content on YouTube as it was my first upload place for Hairmilk and I want visuals for some of my tracks. I'm definitely hoping for a more aloof yet striking style which would be helped by an art director friend, with whom I am currently scoring and editing the vocals for their Play, which leads me to my next project

The Play I am working on has been a fun time for sure, but also harrowing to know I will see people's live reaction to the music and vocals I have created and will be editing. I combined a mixture of Musique Concrete and Microsound, with a touch of Techno and RnB elements to create a genuinely spacious, vulnerable and harrowing soundscape. The vocals provided by the Play's actresses are touching and emotional, however elude me when trying to incorporate these elements into the soundtrack I've made. I am still working my hardest on these elements, however I am incredibly close to the material in the Play, which may be clouding my vision 😕

The Play focuses on 3 women over 3 acts and 3 tracks that portray the abuse various women can go through with men. I can imagine some people have read that and may already dislike the concept, but I want to be clear. I have been raised by my mother and sister who both have experienced a form of the abuse showcased in the Play. This means a lot to me and is almost prophetic that I can bring attention to this issue, despite myself being a biological male

I have been grappling with the concept of gender and feel that I myself do not identify as such, but I still need to adjust my head space before I deal with this, as I'm not sure I understand what I feel 👾

With any luck I would like to put the soundtrack on Bandcamp and donate any money made from the purchasing of the Soundtrack to shelters for women who are abused and have suffered from a negative experience and have need to leave their homes. I would like to put the soundtrack on streaming as well, however am unsure how to donate the proceeds to charities given the tax forms needed to receive the funds from streaming

Speaking of money, as I am starting a new job I am sure the proceeds of the Play, would be better given to those who need it, and moving into the future, I do want to try and gain an income so I may put more time into music, but have encountered a problem. I want to make art without the need to chase money to do so. It feels odd to want money in pursuit of art, and in this way, I have begun to hate the very thing I need to live 💰

I have been working on an Album / EP which at this point contains nothing but 2 songs and I have changed what it is, over and over again. Now it is nothing, and the idea was a 5 track DnB EP. It was then to be a 13 track LP focused on a soundtrack for a made up game in my mind. I have since opted to try a completed self-synthesized song style that is unique, harsh, beautiful, and trans-formative, however as with most projects, I think I simply need to dive in before I try to thing about what it is 💫

In the end I am overthinking as usual, but the things I am grateful for are the opportunities to work with talented artists in their respective fields, the ability to enjoy my life with my partner and freedom and especially the chance to bring awareness to abuse in hopes the damages can be mitigated and everyone can have a chance to be as grateful as I am

Take care all, and stay safe in these trying times xox